To be of Service
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What is your Life in service to?
"To be of service" - have you heard this term?
How does it make you feel when you hear it, say it, think it? Is it a deep truth for you or some buzz words without authenticity?
I never deeply pondered on this until I realised this frequently used statement I hear from others was awkward and incomplete for me - and in a moment, it became complete and my world opened up further.
Being of service - until now - was an incomplete sentence for me.
I'll say it right now and get it over without any further resistance - I love beauty!
Beautiful items, beautiful flowers, beautiful fabrics, beautiful images, beautiful experiences, beautiful people, beautiful food, beautiful buildings, scenery, moments, beautiful anything.
If its adorned in beauty or looks beautiful, it's a Yes from me.
I just love beauty. I want my world surrounded by beauty.
And to be clear - this beauty is not vanity.
It wasn't until recently my appreciation for beauty was amplified when it was paired with the dreaded words of ''to be of service''.
I'll connect the dots for you.
You see I never truly connected with the
"to be of service'' statement.
I heard it come out of my mouth in a Reiki energy session (me as a client) and in that moment I realised it was false, it didn't feel right, it felt incomplete, something was missing and I didn't have a clue of the what was missing.
I said it because I thought that's what I should say, be, do.
I've heard this particular term of ''being of service'' many times and I didn't really know where or why people seemed to be saying it.
I realised in that moment that it's not something for me to say with authenticity and so I shall never say it again until it feels deeply true for me or until I figure out what my 'in service to' actually is.
What was I in service to?
If you had of asked me that question previously, I couldn't really tell you with any depth. I had an idea with a rough articulation which indicated to me I hadn't yet reached an inner knowing of what my life was truly in service to. When you know, you know and can succinctly be iterated with ease from within you.
Towards the end of 2024, I was listening to a YouTube video/podcast of an interviewer I had just come across and the guest was the founder of Gene Keys, Richard Rudd. Richard Rudd was a student of Ra Uru Hu - the founder of Human Design. Richard speaks most eloquently, gently, knowingly, humbly and there is a sense he has gone within to discover that divine beauty of life so listening to him was like hearing a lullaby of the cosmos.
At the end of this interview a new piece of my puzzle dropped in from an answer Richard provided when he was asked 'so what are you in service to?'. Richard's answer was perfect for me.
The Answer to the Unfinished Statement
The answer was 'to be of service to beauty'.
As soon as I heard this, it was like a light was turned on inside me.
I realised the incomplete and awkward statement of 'to be of service' worked for me when it was extended to 'be of service to beauty'. I don't mean beauty as in the beauty industry (yes my mind goes there quickly too). I mean beauty of life, beauty of design, beauty of creation, beauty of all that is, the innate beauty of our intelligent design, realm and universe.
I presume we all have a definition or assumption of what beauty is but I had never deeply pondered what beauty meant for me and to be clear for myself of what beauty was for me, in my Life.
We are surrounded by beauty.
We are literally swimming in beauty.
This mysterious realm we live in is beautiful.
All of it.
Are you/your Life in service to that beauty?
Ashamed of my love for Beauty
For the next few months after this new piece of the puzzle was discovered, beauty seemed to become more prevalent in my life.
From that - I had a deep insight that until this time - beauty was something I was quietly ashamed of loving and demonstrating out loud in my own way.
I (tried) to hide my love of beauty, the feminine, the pretty, the floral, the flowy, the sparkly, the elegant, opulent and beautiful everything - and it tried to sneak out anyway but I kept it tamed.
Being raised in a world of survival with masculine domination, corporate structures and various other expectations, my flowing feminine form of beauty and appreciation of - was in the shadows.
My form of beauty was present in my life in small ways, how I dressed, decorated my home, but it wasn't a centrepiece of living life or of being of service to the beauty of Life. It was a forgotten desire to create a beautiful life and adorn myself and my life with as much beauty as possible.
Hearing Richards words that day was a permission slip for me to welcome in - all the way in - and embrace being in love with, and unashamed of my love for what I deemed beautiful.
Acknowledging my shame, what I was holding shame for - was a clue to the remedy my Soul was seeking. Unlocking that shame, freedom began to come my way.
I truly believe this is God's intention for us.
To live in beauty.
To see the divine beauty in all that is - regardless of the inverted darkness of events in our Life and/or the world.
The remedy to that which is hidden, forgotten, ignored or dismissed, unheard, unseen, unfelt within you is to acknowledge it with care,
love it out loud and embrace it with nurturing tenderness.
My remedy is...
To be of Service... to Beauty!
To be of Service... to the beauty of the divine.
To be of Service... to the divine beauty within.
What does this actually mean? To be of service to beauty?
It means what you want it to mean for you.
For me - it means this. That all that I honour, wear, create, do, don't do is in service to the divine beauty of life and the divine within me. To minimise complacency, no longer accept the ordinary or mundane or homogenised/commercialised form of literally anything.
It can mean boundaries, new clothes, getting rid of old or ugly unwanted things or ways of being.
For me it means to create my life with more beauty, beautiful items, beautiful respect of my items, beautify any movements I make in life and most of all to shift my view of life and most of all My Self.
To be quite frank - life gets ugly because we make it ugly - we give up on beauty, we give up on commanding beauty in our life, on our way of being, which in a way means we have given up on acknowledging and honouring our divine spark of beauty from our Creator. There are many reasons for this including trauma, challenges in life, inherited issues within family lineage, social conditioning, corporate and social structures and more etc etc.
We have recent evidence that beauty was a way of living, building, creating, doing. If you look into the past there was an era where the buildings, clothes, everyday items were crafted with care, love, time, intelligence and most of all functional beauty.
Where did that beauty come from?
What happened to it?
Why don't we build homes, buildings, towns, every day items with such craftsmanship and functional beauty and opulence anymore?
There is no specific one way beauty shows up or should look like.
However, when beauty does show up and you are attuned to it, you know Beauty has arrived!
It is a work in progress, a transformation process to bring beautiful to every aspect of Life and seeing Life - including how I see my Self.
An invitation:
Take a moment to consider what it is you deem beautiful, like really beautiful - in yourself, in your life, in others, in the world.
What is your definition of beautiful?
When you acknowledge what is beautiful to you - what arises within you? Notice what happens in your somatic experience.
What is beautiful within your Life?
How can you bring more of this beauty into your Life?
Where in your Life are you in service to divine beauty?
And now...
I remain in awe and the aftermath of this insight and discovery. The unravelling is still taking place to enhance all that is in my Life with beauty.
So what have I done differently from this?
Slowly - as my confidence builds (aka as my nervous system regulates and builds resilience with internal resources through my own healing and Life experiences) to emerge into the world as my fully bloomed authentic Self, I am experimenting with creating who I want to be and to do Life the way that is correct for me (Human Design has helped greatly here too).
Creating a beautiful home, a beautiful wardrobe of outfits that make me feel fabulous at all times, creating beautiful and cosy surroundings.
Having a beautiful notebook to write notes in, a beautiful space to rest at home in, a beautiful wallet to store abundance of currency, have beautiful flowers in the home and or in the garden. Enjoy the ceremony of beautiful self-care.
Beauty everywhere.
Offer a beautiful smile to a stranger, a compliment to the lady in a lovely dress doing her shopping at the grocery store. Only enjoy beautiful chocolate. Beautiful natural nourishing food and clean water. Noticing the beauty of nature at my front and back door. Being grateful for the beauty of Life, the earth, the natural forces we are surrounded in.
The more beauty you see and bring into your Life, the more it seems to take over - I have no complaints about this.
For my own healing journey, this revelation has been very useful - not just as an insight, but as a path forward to reflect on all that I do - is it done with divine beauty or because the conditioned world (family, past experiences, limiting beliefs etc) influenced me to?
It is an ongoing self reflection and introspection process.
I realise not everyone can click their heels - or fingers - like Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz and it all comes alive in technicolour (it actually can happen that way too) - however it is possible. If it is possible for one, it is possible for many, if not all.
It has taken me many experiences, years of new information, knowledge seeking, learning, The Work, healing and counselling sessions of my own and more. However gems such as these are everywhere - if you allow yourself to listen, hear, feel, know and re-train your own mind to see the world with new eyes.
I can now honestly state with authenticity...
My life is in service to Beauty.
My purpose is to be of service to Beauty.
I am in service to Beauty.
To be of service - to Beauty.
xo Kylie
March 2025
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